Humbled

Because I was so humbled after staffing the last DTS and not having a clue what I was doing the entire time, I was afraid of what staffing another school would look like. I had thoughts about throwing in the towel a few times, but God showed me that it was all for good reason. When I finally got around to processing the whole time, God revealed something to me:
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverence. Perseverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything..." (James 1:2-15)
God was revealing to me my pride, my selfishness, and my immaturity. He was purifying me to be more like Christ so that those who come to me I can point to Christ. God was developing me as a leader through humility. Mary gave me this verse the night we left on outreach and it ends the section in James 1 about perseverence through trials:
"Don't be deceived, my dear brothers. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created." (James 1:16-18)
God's character never changes, he is always good, his intentions are always good, and in every situation or circumstance he is good.